To Kohila...

Happy 21st birthday dear! Hope it is a great one.
Remember what Abraham Lincoln said, “And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.”
Lots of love,
Christina

And now I shall go back to my hole to study. =)

Of mugging and pondering...

So, it's 3 more weeks till exams. How frightening is that thought? 3 more weeks... sounds so finite... heh.

Anyway, been a while since I posted. My apologies. Saturday was Raya, where I had a little too much to eat but really, the sambal was really good, and Grace and I came to my room to study and complete our HLSD assignments, but we ended up napping on the chairs facing our laptops. Lol. Sunday was Fawn's birthday - which she dubbed her twenteenth birthday. Laughed when Jason tried to say "twenteenth birthday". Monday was HLSD assignment hand in. Whew! I'm now left with the remaining optional piece for the potfolio. How abhorrent! My mind is in stasis - no new ideas generated! Even the thought of writing '5 things I wish I knew at the start of 2nd year' has me stuck at number 1 which is... drumroll please... first year material! *rolls eyes*. Been mugging otherwise. No classes yesterday, and today was ok, although someone bungled somewhere and sent an email informing our Neoplasia 2 lecturer that her lecture starts at 1 when actually, it was scheduled for noon. Stocked up on coffee, some junk and indomie for the exam prep. I am officially dependent on coffee to survive.

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I feel insecure. Without confidence. But I wonder if people will be surprised at that... I've been told that my countenance has always been one of confidence. Like I am always on top of things. I wish it's true. Lol. Heh. I think I have to stop being so self-reliant and to depend more on God. But that does not mean that I just let go of all my responsibilities and duties as a student. It just means that I strive to do my best and let Him take care of the rest. To accept that He has blessed me so much, beyond my imagination and comprehension. And to not complain so much. Easier said than done, eh?

On a side note, updates will be sporadic until after Nov 7th. I'll try to update at least once a week, but... we'll see. Sorry Wend and Kohila!

Of Code Geass R2 25 and wondering...

Spoiler warning:

Lelouch dies! And the saddest thing is that no one will ever know the sacrifices he made for the peace that they enjoy, save a few. I thought it was especially poignant how he flashed back to the time when he, Suzaku and Nunally were children, just before his death. How happy they all were and how all he did was really for his sister. And I think that all he really desired was to be with Nunally and Suzaku, very much like the times when they were children - happy, fulfilled with just each other for company. Or how Nunally was saying that all she ever needed was her brother by her side and she would be content. Or her screams of anguish and grief and despair drowned out by triumphant cries of "Zero! Zero!". Or how Rivalz was telling Milly that he really missed the times when they were all in the student council, wasting their time away, having fun and doing ridiculous things that all teenagers do. Especially when juxtaposed with the fact that one of their own was the Emperor who was commiting heinous crimes, and the other, his knight, protecting the Emperor and ensuring his safety such that those very atrocities could continue. So many deaths... so many tragedies... so many horrors and losses in the war... It was a sad but fitting ending to the anime. I refuse to join in the is-Lelouch-alive-or-dead debate that is raging all over the Internet. I'll just wait and see if there's an OVA that will clear things up, if not, I'll accept the ending as what was portrayed in the anime without further interpretation of the wagon/ cart scene.

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Sometimes I wonder what the world is coming to. The economy is shot, people are getting retrenched, the political situation at home is not as stable as most would like it to be... it feels like it's an unsafe place to be in, this world we live in. The pervasive atmosphere of depression and worry, the incredulity that follows after reading about the mountain made out of the molehill, the disbelief at human folly and caprice... it disheartens and discourages. But we try to rise above it, to not let it leave a permanent mark, to use it as a booster and not let it pull us down. Because that is what we can do. That is what we should do. And that is what I will try to do.

Of OSCEs and nasi lemak...

It's already Wednesday! So sad... the mid semester break seems to be flying... haiz. Anyway, yesterday was OSCE practice at CMHSE with Adilah, Li Ping, Jessica and Grace. After that was dinner at Keith's. He made nasi lemak! True, it's Singapore style nasi lemak, but it's nasi lemak nonetheless and it was really good. Organised my notes, and interviewed my HLSD participant. Heh. What else have I got planned? Tomorrow's another OSCE practice session, then Friday, before caregroup will probably be a revision session with Jocelyn on reading ECGs.

Hehe, when Sanjay heard what I have for this break, he agreed with my opinion that my life seems boring, and that he would intrude on my 'me' time to make my life more interesting. Lol. But he also said that since I enjoy what I do, then it couldn't be classified as boring. Yup, I agree.

What else to write about? Nothing really exciting happened this week. So... I guess I'll sign off for now. =)